Submitted by Conrad Doyle
Recognizing anger triggers can serve to help each of us understand the "why" of our angry outbursts and the need to "do" something to rid us of this often very uncomfortable emotion.
It is human nature to react to anger by recognizing, then destroying, the cause or source of that anger. Often, the answer is as close as the reflection in the mirror, but that is not where we want to look.
What then do we do when that trigger happens to be another person?
A person that, if not discredited, can cause great shame to be leveled upon us and our reputation forever sullied.
Contrary to what you may think, or even have heard, that is not the intended outcome of this column. Actually, it is as far as the east is from the west.
In truth, it saddens me that we find ourselves in this cesspool of deceit, distrust and dishonesty in our county government offices. When we elect an individual to fill a position, that requires them to be honest in their role and above the fray when trouble and/or opportunity comes knocking at our front door. I once knew a good man that served many volunteer positions in his church on Sunday and ran a lucrative business the rest of the week. The opportunity to sell his business at a very handsome profit margin came his way, and he rightly sold it. For the next couple of months, he instructed his employees to contact their account holders and inform them of the sale and to offer them a discount if they left the new owners and brought their business to him when he opened an identical business that would be opening in another close by city. As the date of the transfer of ownership crept up, so did the pressure put on his account managers to secure signed contracts with each of their account holders.
The day came when the new owners took the keys to the office and for his employees to commit to either stay with the new owner or follow him to his new business. I had stopped by his office to wish him well and to meet the new owners. I expected to see all smiles on the faces of owners and employees alike but, my Pollyanna expectation was not coming to fruition.
One of the employees that I had known for many years and always enjoyed his visits to my office, was on this celebratory day, a very reserved and tormented young man. He felt ashamed at the deception that he participated in and was psychologically and spiritually confused by the actions of a man he had always considered a great role model. On this day, however, he was only able to leave without conversing with the new owners. He told me that he felt so betrayed by the man he thought was an honest. Christian man because when he last spoke to the man he considered his mentor, he gave an answer that devastated him. He was told "you cannot mix business with religion" and the sooner he understood the difference, the sooner he would become the best salesman the company had ever had.
Why was this young man so spiritually wounded? Because he expected better from this man. He just assumed that this man he respected was the same man whether he saw him in church on Sunday or at the office on Monday. I guess honesty and politics are best described as an enigma wrapped in a conundrum. Maybe we expected too much in our elected officials. Maybe we/I should not have voted for someone that in part used the title "Christian" as a campaign positive, but to expect those insinuations to carry over into our day to day life/decisions/activities was unrealistic.
So here we are now, trying in some way to transfer our anger onto an individual we have never known because we cannot bear to look into the mirror to identify the true source of our anger.
Now as promised, let's take a look at the most confusing part of this whole "who is Conrad Doyle" line of questioning. If only those individuals that have tried to publicly shame the local news paper, its owner/publisher and staff, and have used their given platform in an attempt to interject themselves into the issues surrounding County politics, would spend just a fraction of the amount of time invested instead in researching the claims being made and requiring those individuals involved to address the issues with truth and honesty.
It is clear that finding Conrad's identity is much more important than investigating the issues and asking those hard questions. Hard questions that will anger some folks to the point they will lash out at anyone and anything that dare question the actions and intentions of those in this community that have been elected or appointed to positions of power.
Let's take a trip down memory lane. You the citizen can decide the following:
What is more important: Getting to the truth? Or finding out who is behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
I first asked about the reasoning behind the top secret meeting that brought in "notables" from as close as Frankfort and as far away as Washington, D.C. I asked who footed that bill and why was it so meticulously secretive that not one news outlet was even made aware of, or invited to attend?
What is more important: the truth about this secretive meeting and monies spent or the identity behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
Next, I asked why the farmers were lied to about the future of the shipping company when asked point blank, and then told "the farmers will be fine", only to find out the truth when the rest of us learned of the changes at the CGB property.
What is more important: the truth about the who, what, when and why of the deception? Or the identity behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
A number of times I repeated verbatim comments made by State Rep. Nancy Tate: "One of the major issues brought to us by county and city officials was their desire for more flexibility when it comes to raising local tax revenue. Local officials want the ability to raise more revenue to cover new projects and skyrocketing pension costs including the flexibility to impose small sales tax increases to pay for local projects".
Again, I am asking: What is more important? The truth about this statement or the identity behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
I questioned the planned removal of Mr. Hardesty and Mr. Bewley from the Board minutes before a vote to accept the breaking of CGB's lease was taken by Fiscal Court. The purposeful manipulation of the outcome of the vote was actually a violation of our Kentucky Constitution. So, again: What is more important? The truth and re-reinstatement of these two men and the removal of the Judge Executive's "yes" men? Or the identity behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
Then remember the library questions? Yes, the one that I named the head librarian as the one that wanted to keep the nearly $1,700,000 and build an unnecessary building? I came to learn that she is "not the one that makes those decisions, it is done by the board". So, the paper printed a clarification of "the who" and I will add to that, I should not have used her name specifically, and for that I offer my apology for that miss-identification. As a little side note, let me just say this, the facts still remain true. She was asked to return the funds to the tax payers, and she said no.
Again I ask: What is more important? The truth about the questionable and rushed building of a building that we do not need? Or the identity behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
It is doubtful we will get answers to these, and many more questions, I and others have asked. I say doubtful because it seems that “we”, who pay the taxes that pay the salaries and exceptionally great benefits of the county employees, apparently do not deserve to know how our money is being used, or as in many cases, misused. But what is more important? The truth about the new and unnecessary building or the entity behind the pen name Conrad Doyle?
It should be very concerning to all of us that the only questions being asked are questions about the identity of the author/editor of this column.
Since when is the identity behind a pen-name the only thing that raises suspicion?
Why would county leadership spend the time and energy they have to find the person behind the pen-name Conrad Doyle? Why would someone make the statement "We have looked throughout the entire state and there is no Conrad Doyle in Kentucky".
What are they afraid will be revealed?